I breaking into something new here. If you couldn't tell by the title. This was my birthday weekend! WOOT! I had a great time. I am sore from performing on Saturday night! So, I am a year older. What does that mean to me? Nothing.
I don't feel any more mature, I don't feel anymore stable. Actually, I feel just the opposite. I feel like all I am doing is running around trying to make things work and nothing is. Maybe I am trying too hard. I feel like I should probably tell you all my state of mind.
I am not in a good place tonight. Maybe it was the Goose, the Patron; but I am feeling depressed and lonely. Very emo! I really want to be better then who I am right now! I know that this is part of the mental illness that I have; and being a broke bitch, makes it hard to get help. I do have insurance, but how do you pay the co-pay?
Anyway! I am just in a weird mood and felt like sharing it. Maybe you care, maybe you don't, but that is the jest of what is going on in my head. I just wish there was a button to start over! Something that when it gets this way I can just say okay "Redo" and make it all work out.
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