Where do I begin? I am having a good change at the moment. However, the quitting smoking thing is getting a little rough! But I press on for my Health! Now that I have my physical health under way…I should start working on my other two health aspects…Spiritual and Psychological. I think I will leave spiritual to last cause that is gonna take some major renovation.
In 1999 my doctor told me after complaining about back pain… “You’re just depressed and the pain is psychosomatic”. So he put me on anti-depressants, and I went crazy! So I quit taking them because I don’t think I was the only one in the room that day with mental issues.
After ending a three year relationship, I began to feel really out of control of my worrying. I got nervous for nothing, etc. So I went to counselor. She told me well maybe you have anxiety. I went to my PCP and he gave me Lexapro…and Xanax to sleep. I never took the Xanax, but the Lexapro helped a little.
So that is where I am at…really at a crossroads of what is really going on in my brain? Some people tell me that I could have Adult ADD! I am going crazy just trying to figure out everything. What I do know is that being in the sun and taking walks helps me calm down. Writing this blog…helps me not be so fing crazy. I just wish that it was easier to diagnose mental illness. (BTW I hate that term)
I don’t know why I wrote this blog…it just came out of nowhere…maybe in the interest of full disclosure, maybe to garner some insight. Let me know what you have to say about this! Do you have mental illness and how do you deal? Or Am I just Crazy and that’s the way it is?
XOXO,
Stupid Boi
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