Let's catch up! So a lot has happened in the short time that I have been away! I have gone a little crazy. I had my Peace Corps interview! Yeah, that was awesome…so one step closer to being there. I just hope the rest of this is this easy. Anyway, no need to worry cause all that positive energy everyone is sending will be the key!
Life is funny sometimes you know…I have noticed some strange things lately. I really have become a major player in my own destiny. I have taken control and I am starting to remove the things that bother me the most. I cannot understand anymore blaming others or circumstances for my own poor decisions. I guess that is when you grow up! My whole attitude has changed, I cannot deal with all the negativity that surrounds some people. Everyday cannot be a bad day…that is just not normal. It is hard times in Ghetto these days. Money is tight, and jobs are really hard to come by. I have a job but I need another one. However, my hours at work are so strange that it is hard to come by. I just wish someone would just hand me money…lol, don't we all!
I am moving back in with my parents to pay off my debt before I go into the Peace Corps…yeah that may make me sound like a loser, but I don't care. At least I will be debt free!
Halloween- Well this Halloween was actually fun. I went to Miss Teri's party…I drank too much I guess and puked but I didn't really! No, seriously, I had maybe two cups of "Where the fuck did I park my truck". Yeah so that was not too fun but the next night I actually got to see some people I haven't seen in a while. That was awesome because people are great. I love when you haven't seen someone in a while and they act like it has been years! LOL! Nicole's party was really great thought. Sometimes I wonder if Halloween is just an excuse for people to be half naked.
I have actually stopped going out, due to lack of flow, and just because I have no need to look anymore. Although, I did meet someone who is so adorable. I really want to ask him out…but that would be super dumb because I am LEAVING. I think that he finds me interesting…or just in my own mind. Well we shall see where that goes. Let go, Let G*D! ya'know!
So today is a lazy day…Sunday, I am actually going to clean my car and do some random stuff. I have tomorrow off though so I don't even have to worry about anything. I know that was random but you know me. Everything is kosher on this end. Life is beautiful. I just wish some people would understand that so they could understand what it is like to be okay now and then.
Someone said last night…I wonder if this is how normal people feel. I don't know really, I am far from normal. OR we could be really cliché and say "what is normal". We all go through our ups and downs, have those days. How do you cope if that day last your whole life? That takes a stronger person then me! I mean my world crashes when Gossip Girl is a re-run. I wouldn't begin to understand that. That is why I could never judge that! I just don't understand.
That is something funny too. I have realized that I don't understand a lot of things…and that is okay. I thought I did but I don't so it's not that I don't care…it's just that I don't want to be bothered. Isn't that okay? People act really messed up when you just don't pay attention to them 24/7! Sorry life moves forward…never back. So stop living in the past and start living in the now. Well I guess that is my rant and rave for today.
XOXO,
Stupid Boi
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