Okay so tell me the truth…we all have that one friend who no matter what you say or do they totally do the opposite. Like when they get their heart broken by the same guy more then once and continues to go back…Like this time is gonna be different!
I know that I should be happy for this person…but fuck it…because the other person is a complete and total FUCK! I think it is quite funny that everyone else says something about how much of a FUCK he is. Oh well I guess that is not my life…I am just not going to be the shoulder to cry on! I have my own problem.
How am I doing you ask? Oh well, I am shitty actually. Other then the fact I am still alive and have a job…well! I am just sick of trying so hard to talk to someone about the way I am feeling but they don’t care. I know everyone has their own problems but damn I listen all the time. I mean has anyone actually noticed that my whole mood and attitude changed??? I am sure you have and are just thinking he is being a dick! How about the fact that I have actually been considering doing things that I shouldn’t just to see if anyone notices.
Yeah I want the attention! Fuck, I give it out…I want some too! I am sick of hearing about it all. Yeah I have my own problems…how about money for one…how about stress from work? So if you are not going to take my advice then don’t ask for it! Definitely don’t ask for it and then turn around and ridicule it! I am not gonna sit here and say oh I am just being bitchy today. NO! HELL NO! I am not being bitchy I am being honest.
I am sorry if that hurts your feelings…as a true friend you will sit down and talk about it with me. I have tried to say things before…but I get shut down. I am not angry about this…really I am not but I am upset. I have had bad days lately…I have had problems lately…why wouldn’t you call me just to say hi or just drop by to see if I am actually alive. Oh yeah that is what facebook and myspace are for. Now what if I got rid of it all???? No more social networking! Then what would you do…what if I just got rid of the phone, stopped going out, would you try to hunt me down??
Ah, well! I guess that is what this is about. Just don’t ask me how I am doing, if you are not going to take the time to change the way I feel! Or just listen to what is going on! So everyone go back to your lives…thanks for reading this!
XOXO,
Stupid Boi
1 comment:
I'm sorry you're 'damaged' ... and can I just reassure you that you're NOT stupid, no matter WHAT anyone says ... I think life is about ‘taking care of others’ … but, I also think that we, the people who ‘take care of’, also need some TLC from time-to-time as well. I’m sorry you don’t have anyone in your life giving you that … however, please don’t resort to havoc or injury on yourself in this dire time … I know that life gets rough, and people let you down, but don’t let that ruin who you are … because who you are, is exactly who God made you to be … a person who is caring, compassionate, and someone who listens when a friend is in need … hold onto those things that make you … YOU, and don’t ever lose faith and hope in people, and ultimately, yourself … I leave you with a quote from Author Anne Lamott … “… Hope begins in the dark; the stubborn hope that if you just show up and try to do the right thing, the dawn will come. You wait and watch and work: you don’t give up …” Much Love to you … ~Emily
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