Showing posts with label Coolness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Coolness. Show all posts

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Y'all Stupid Boi is Angry.

Change! Can someone change?  I have to say that in the past couple of months, I have really hated myself.  I hate what people call me.  I know that I dug that hole.  I mean could I really be that Bitchy?  Am I the most Offensive person you know?  Or is it that you don't actually know me?

Just the other night I was so Fucking nice to someone who made fun of me and the work I do TO MY FUCKING FACE.  It took everything I had not to lay that cunning linguist (see what I did there) out! I am sorry that you think what I do for a living is something to make fun of...you won't be laughing so FUCKING Hard when you have to come and get tested or G*D Forbid that test comes back positive.  In fact I smiled and the FATHER FUCKER and refrained from reading him like I had a test the next day!

Oh shit, y'all Stupid Boi is angry...as usual.  I am just so tired of feeling like I don't measure up...no matter what I do.  Just once I want someone to stop saying "you do good work" and actually help!

I am sorry that I had to post this...it just had to come out, because I can't spend one more night crying.  I have done some real damage to my self-esteem, self-worth, and my mental health.  I just can't take this anymore! I know I should be more "thicked skinned" but I am not.  Sorry I cannot be the nicest most humble person in the world. 


Thank You,
Stupid Boi

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Stupid Boi takes a deep breath!

I love Davey Wavey! Even when I am have a really bad day, like today, I can just read his blog and it makes me feel better. Lately, I have been feeling a lot of “I’m not ___________enough” to do anything. When I went over to Mr. Wavey’s site I found this  Davey Wavey


It made me feel that I could do anything. On a side note, “Feeling Good” started playing as I was reading it. This just goes to show that even when it seems that the Universe is out to get you…it really isn’t. (that wasn’t terribly poetic…sorry).

So today I am going to just take a deep breath and let the Universe take over!

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Stupid Boi at a Crossroads

You know the saying "never meet your hero!"   I have learned that lesson many times.  However, I feel that is only half the truth.  I feel that sometimes you make friends and then somehow they become your hero!  Sometimes, they say things to you that affect your whole out look on life. 

Someone said something to me in passing the other day and for some reason I have just been thinking about it a lot.  I guess that means it was really meant to be something that you needed to here. That's all I wanted to say tonight. Nothing too profound...just keep your eyes open and your heart full!

XOXO,
Stupid Boi

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Stupid Boi had Committed Microbicide

Microbicides…what does that mean? A microbicide is any compound or substance whose purpose is to reduce the infectivity of microbes, such as viruses or bacteria. Why yes, I did just give you a vocabulary lesson! Why am I talking about this? That is what I am doing at this moment.


You see children; Stupid Boi is on another adventure. This time I headed to Pittsburgh, home of the 2010 International Conference on Microbicides. In my line of work Microbicides are an important new technology being developed to prevent HIV transmission. Right now, Microbicides are in clinical trials all over the world!


What does this mean for you? Well, first of all, Microbicides give Women the power over HIV infection. It allows us to provide another way to prevent infection. It is under the same context that if you do not want to get pregnant you should use condoms and birth control right? Two prevention methods are better then one. This will also give Women the power to protect themselves in a discreet manner.

So why do I care? As a young gay man, I feel that is very important that we protect ourselves from HIV. Although, I do not have a vagina…I have an anus! There is advocacy and clinical work going on to develop Rectal Microbicides. This is very important in a community that sometimes forgets condoms.


Like I said before this is an international conference; there are people here from all over the world. One thing that I found funny was that someone came to the computer station I was at looking for the bus schedule. When I asked him where he was going, he said…Wal-Mart! He has never seen a Wal-Mart, and to him to complete his journey to the U.S. he has to go to Wal-Mart!


Another thing that I noticed was that, no matter where you are from…you have a Facebook page! I see so many people checking Facebook. I feel a little better about my addiction to it now!


If you want to learn more about Microbicides please check out:


The Global Campaign for Microbicides
International Rectal Microbicides Advocates

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Supid Boi is in your bushes!

Hey there kidos! (Hi Amy...Hi Jill!) SOOOO!  Before I head off to learn all about the booty juice in Pittsburgh; I thought I would check in and say hi! Actually, I really want to talk about Facebook Stalking!

So recently I have meet these two very attractive men!  Well, they both friend-ed me on the lovely Facebook! So, now I am just taking all of my time on Facebook trying to learn everything I should know about these people AKA I am Facebook Stalking them! I know creepy, right!

However, who is to say that they are not stalking me.  Remember the good ole days where you had to drive past someone's house or wait in the bushes to see them?  Now it is like information overload, 24/7!  I had this crush on someone in high school and my friends and I would pile into the car and on our way anywhere we would drive past his house. Good thing we lived nearby! (You know a mile in the other direction)

I don't know what is driving this obsession with stalking people via the interweb!  It is not only a little creepy, but really fun!  I mean now you don't have to pretend that you are not stalking someone...you can actually come out and say "Hey, I Facebook Stalked you today"  and that is totally cool!   I guess saying "Hey, I waited outside in your bushes and dug through your trash!" just isn't that poetic.

Wait, there is more!  You can also subscribe to their updates!  So now you can get a text message anytime they update their status!  It's almost like they are texting you...almost.  So here is to being the creepster that is in you "Facebook Bushes" just hoping you don't catch me! 

Who do you Facebook stalk? 

Stalk ya Later,
Stupid Boi

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Stupid Boi held Captive!

As some of you may know, I am in Chicago for training. I have to say that it is possible one of the better trainings I have been too. But, I am not talking about that.

I was in the elevator today and I look up and there is a small screen displaying different things; poems from 5th graders at local elementary schools, ads, little useless facts. (i.e. Did you know that the dye used to make things green is really toxic to the environment. So much for going Green, Huh!) I digress. I noticed that the company put a little saying across the bottom that says “you are watching captive network”.

So, you know I am not one of the great philosophers of our time…I mean I am no Margret Cho…but, I try. I thought about this on my way up the elevator. We are captive most of our lives. Yes, we have the freedom of thought, but how many of you actually think outside the box?

I run into a lot of problems with this. I do not believe that “Public Health Model” is in fact the most effective model. I think it falls into the category of what’s good for the gander is good for the goose. This is simply not true. I do understand that our hands are often tied by government, etc. This brings me back to my point! We are held captive by prevailing thought and not really evidence based rationale.

Even with the evidence based rationale, we are captive to show our numbers in the way they want us too. I would love to sit back and apply for a grant and be able to bring in the one person whose life was changed because of the work we did. That just wouldn’t work. WHY? Because we have to disseminate money to the people who are make the “Biggest” impact on the “Largest” group of people. (Utilitarianism in the most basic form)

Let us take for instance, Greenpeace and Mister Splashy Pants. (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mister_Splashy_Pants) The whole story boils down to showing that one whale can change the lives of millions of other whales. Simply by personifying one creature Greenpeace created real social change in Japan.

One human can change the lives of millions by having a unique thought. Creating that thought is something we do all the time. It takes action to make that thought valuable in the eyes of the community. Someone, thought about the public health model, now it is widely accepted by most everyone in the U.S. and dare I say the world. (Except me) There is a model for everything.

Taking the HIV Crisis with the public health model, probably went a little something like this: (according to the Centers for Disease Control)

1)Define the Problem: Gays are dying, Junkies are dying…HIV Virus Discovered.
2)Identify risk and protective factors: Sex, Sharing Needles/ Abstain, use condoms, needle exchange.
3)Develop and Test prevention strategies: Create a test, create a rapid test, implement testing, and define effective behavioral interventions.
4)Assure widespread adoption: Condom use=safer sex, using clean needles=less risk of HIV transmission,
5)Create Policy: Make the schools teach Abstinence only education, create laws that make it illegal to carry needles….WAIT WHA?

Now, I know that this is a VERY OVER SIMPLIFIED VERSION of this model, and there are other great programs out there that DO make a difference. It is just an illustration of how we can become captive to a process. That captivity stops us from being…excuse the catch phrase…Innovative.

Innovation has to come at a price. It comes with the inability to truly be free, unless there is some private funding out there that is willing to give it a chance! (but even then you have to prove it works based on standards set by “society”) Something I learned today; sometimes it takes a captive audience to get your point across!

XOXO,
Stupid Boi

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Stupid Boi's Confession!

Dear Canada,


There is something that I have been meaning to tell you for a long time. I LOVE YOU. Not as in how you love your friends or your family…I mean truly LOVE you! I have been in love with you since I was a kid. That first time I stepped onto your soil and felt the cold air brush against me, I know this was love.

I had long forgotten about the love I have for you until this year. You Winter Olympics made my love burn like the Olympic Flame. I know you feel it too! You are so open and free; so majestic and loving. I cannot wait till I see you again.

I love your healthcare system, your beautiful First People, and your national anthem. I want to thank you for the many wonderful gifts you have given me. Celine Dion and Eric McCormack are amazing.

So to you Canada, I say, I love you and Thank you!



XOXO,
Stupid Boi


PS Don’t tell Argentina. He still thinks I was on a “Business” trip!

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Just think this is cool!


Hey~
I was just looking at my Google tracker thingy...(technical name) and I noticed that I could see what networks people are using to access the site...don't worry I can't see anything else other then the name. I just thought it was cool to see it. If you look someone from the U.S. Centers for Disease Control is number 7...Just thought it was cool!